The war of the mind

I have decided for every one bad thing that goes through my mind – I shall in return determine two positives.

It is not easy to love and remain positive in a world so full of negativity. I saw a movie last night that was and still is very thought provoking. To me the movie was about the struggle of mankind to determine their place in this world. It is strange that we struggle so much to be included in some master scheme of life, when in truth we have already been participating in that scheme. It is the realization of what we are worth – that is the struggle.

Can our self worth become so wrapped up in the view of how other people perceive us – that it taints the very belief of who we are. Is it the responsibility of another to provide that realization for ourselves. I believe this is one of the many reasons why the Lord has always wished to be apart of our lives. He wants us to realize that our self worth should not be determined by any mortal, but in the Lord alone. I believe that the Lord helps plant people along the way not only to encourage you, but for you, in return encourage others. Unfortunately, I as a human often rely on the encouragement that the Lord uses others to bring – and sometimes become careless in relying on the Lord for who I am.

Thank the Lord for continuous forgiveness, mercy and understanding. I do not wish to look for my self worth through another’s eyes. However, I still struggle with those things. Where is the line between encouragement and relying on humans? There are books and material to help find your “purpose” in this world, and where you belong. I am tired of looking for my “purpose” as if it was some divine answer that will come to me in my sleep. I have decided instead to make the choice of obedience. I will continue to serve and do what I know to be right, ask for forgiveness, and when the Lord asks me to do something – I will try and be obedient. I believe that while it may not quench the every continuing thirst for purpose in life, it provides me with a sense of a direction on a foundation that I know will not falter.