What I want

I really really really really really want to leave! Just go, pack up a car, and just start driving - take my time, see what I want to see... travel to wherever I want to go. and what is stopping me? Responsibility, life, and all that good stuff.... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I want to see my parents, I want to see my friend, I want to see my neice, I want to get away! I want to get away from the stressfulness of this life, where my thoughts are always about beating myself up, what did I do wrong this time, where did I go wrong, GOD HELP ME. I think I say that last line more than any other, and sometimes I wonder if God will ever get tired of me and say, "Yeah you used up your last help me card for the day, wait until tomorrow to have another crisis please." thank the Lord that has never happened. I always feel like I am wrong, about everything - just waiting in anticipation to be right... just once to be right... It is stupid really, but I feel the seasons changing, and I just want to get away. Pack up my family, dog and bird in a dream car, and run to a dream life...