It hurts

It hurts so bad I cannot see the distance between you and me,
the fears I thought I conquered make me question the drop,
the incredible burden never did fall,
this pain that I feel is all too intense,
my eyes are hurting the tears have commenced.
It is too late to undo the past,
is it to much to question this lasting goodbye?
I am to uncertain to just deny that there is a future, there is a way,
but the thoughts are so explosive, I don’t know what to say.
All I understand is what is consuming me now,
saying goodbye to the ones I love, knowing that they are not near
-the person who held my hand in the present and in the past, is now no longer here,
because it is time to pass- a new adventure must begin,
her life she must start,
without me as a participant,
but always in my heart…..