OFFICIALLY CLOSED!

So 2005 is officially over... I am happy and sad in so many ways... Sad that time has yet again passed without fufilling all the goals that I set for 2005 - but happy because this past year has been one of the roughest in my life. This year I have experienced amazing amounts of joy, and extreme levels of sadness. Yet it was an accomplishing year, not because of what other people can see - but the secret gains.

This was one of the best New Years' ever! Well minus a few family and friends. I did the First Night thing downtown with Amy, Ryan, and Ryan! FUN STUFF... We started out at the Mud House, then moved on to 1984 (an 80's arcade) - where I met an old friend that I haven't seen in nearly eight years, we spent about twenty minutes catching up, and then our group went to eat at Trolley's. Now I have to say going to Trolley's on pub crawl night worried me slightly, but I hear the food was good - so we went. We talked about theology, politics and Biblical priniciples in a bar like atmosphere!!! CRAZY! We went to the Abundant Life Center to watch a small magic show (corny!), then headed off to go to the Landers Theatre to watch a show put on by the "Yes Troupe" essentially a bunch of talented teenagers performing exerpts from musical theatre shows. Fun! Next, we went to watch the Skinny Improv guys back at the Abundant Life Center.... and I got called up on stage (whole new story for another day) let's just say I was FREAKED OUT! Then fireworks as a grand finale... *sigh* it was a beautiful night!

So in order for me to properly bid adieu to 2005, I normally outline one significant event that happened each month of that year... so that I can be sure closure is complete and I am ready for a fresh start... for the lucky readers of "enamored opportunity" lol... welcome to the stranger more retentive side of my blog.

January 2005: I went to New York for the first time with my best friend Saite. I started a journey of conquering fear by going to the Empire State Building. I saw the incredible beauty of diversity, and learned more about the business. I also developed a more profound respect for my mother's dedication to her work. I also prepared for a huge relocation, and a career change.

February 2005: I moved to Texas, and started a career change... one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I said goobye to friends and family and left.... Emotional rollercoaster of a month! Started a new job, very hard to understand.

March 2005: Continued to work in Texas, discovered my dissatisfaction with where I was. Worked for the Airport Convention trade show for Serendipity in San Antonio, made a trip to Missouri to figure some things out...

April 2005: Decided that the career path was not what I wanted at that time (in Texas) moved back to Missouri. Started looking for a church, found North Point at the end of the month.

May 2005: Made really great friends at North Point - started hanging out and doing outreaches. Began my adventures with water (and conquering that fear!)

June 2005: Really started getting involved at North Point, conquered a lot of fears... 1) opening up my home to people I did not know very well 2) waterskiing 3) riding in a Jeep 4) found out my best friend was moving....(very upsetting)

July 2005: Waterskied all by my self!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really became involved in Oxygen small group at North Point. Decided to go back to school!

August 2005: Went to Texas to do a live TV spot for Serendipity, My best friend of 8 years moved away (still miss her). Became involved with the Ten small group. My favorite... helped volunteer to makeover Roberson Elementary School with the church! Started school! Tried Tubing for the first time. Went to the lake at night - and swam in the moonlight...

September 2005: Was in a car accident that totalled my poor little Mazda, Lost two very close friends (not dead, just not friends anymore), met some new people.

October 2005: Met a new really great friend! Went to Corn Maize (first time!) Huge Presentation for Media... lost my voice for a couple of weeks. Wrote my first radio play. Went to my first alumni college dance... Lost another few friends (again, not dead, just not friends anymore). Decided not to go to church as often for a while anymore... big fights with God...

November 2005: My pet bird died.... Tired of going to church, pretty much stopped. Huge sales presentation for management class (incredibly successful!)Stopped going to small groups... still struggling with understanding what was going on in my life... Celebrated Thanksgiving with sister in Missouri without parents... made my first turkey and sweet potato dish.

December 2005: Finished the semester of college! Only two more to go!!!! Still struggling with God... not understanding Christians and their cruelty. Went to Texas to do some advertising and closing work. Celebrated a fabulous Christmas with my parents!!! Lap Top broke, conquered some last fears, RECIEVED CLOSURE!!!!! NO MORE LOOMING HORRIBLE FEELINGS I AM FREE!!!!!! Celebrated one of the most WONDERFUL New Year's Eves EVER!!!

I am excited about the new year.... I am excited about the opportunity... Can't wait to make some resolutions, goals, and take time to learn something new... I'll keep you posted.