In Pursuit of a Dream

A few weeks ago, school started- I sooo was not ready for the changes that were going to happen….. You know that feeling you get when you know something good is slipping away to create room for a new challenge in your life? School feels like that to me.

For the first time in a long time I know what I want, and while some may call me a professional student, or indecisive. I know why I have been in school so long. I know the opportunities I have already been offered, tried, and turned down to pursue something that I want!

While that passion has been sparked, it is still difficult to feel “old” and pursue a dream, but I would rather continue that, than live with a lifetime of regret and what if’s. I feel that at my age, I should already have the career that I so desperately wanted-achieve the goals I wanted….. funny how life turns out you know?

The challenging part is the classes, I am use to taking 18 credit hours a semester, and this time I am taking 12, and yet this semester is one of the hardest I have ever had to face. It is challenging me in ways that I haven’t been challenged in a long time.

Essentially I usually have about 5-10 minutes to put together a presentation for the class, and have to present it and then am openly critiqued, now usually this isn’t a problem-however the presentation is always about some personal work that is being done like my personal writing, or my imagination…. It can be nerve wracking. My art work is on display as well…. I usually do not share such personal things with anyone, and yet there it is for everyone to openly critique. A stretch for me a huge stretch! Thank the Lord there is one management class, somewhere where I do not feel quite as foreign…

So I have calculated it and there is 13.5 weeks of school left in this semester, at two days a week that is 27 days of class…..approximately 162 hours of studying left…. *theme music* “I will survive… hey hey hey!”