Much Love

So I end my night talking to my best friend Sai. Gosh I miss her ... no one quite gets me like she does.... It has been nearly five months since she departed, and so so much has happened in her absence. I enjoy taking the time to talk with her more frquently, somehow it makes me feel less lonely. Still, sometimes it feels like a bad dream I cannot wake up from. My neice Teri is having her 6th birthday next month, and well, it will be the first one I will miss since the day she was born. God, why does this have to be so rough? I mean I should be happy knowing she is doing well, and is healthy. I should be excited that Teri is doing good at school... and yet while I am happy, I am also selfish.

This is where I need to remeber that God has provided. He has provided and I should not be selfish with his blessings! A friend and I were talking about faith the other day and the true meaning. One of the conclusions that we arrived at was this "Faith is when you have NOTHING left, and yet you still believe." The Lord has truly blessed me. I had nothing, and he provided - and I have never had to be without because of his love and grace. I have to remeber that, while my friend is not next door - she is still available, and still wonderful! Sometimes faith is the only thing that brings me through... Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto thine own understandings....Thank goodness the Lord knows our humaness and takes time to remind us to trust him!

I hope the Lord blesses Sai, like she has blessed me. She deserves wonderful things- and great opportunity. Thank you Lord for the opportunity to have such a friendship!

Much Love