It hurts

It hurts so bad I cannot see the distance between you and me,
the fears I thought I conquered make me question the drop,
the incredible burden never did fall,
this pain that I feel is all too intense,
my eyes are hurting the tears have commenced.
It is too late to undo the past,
is it to much to question this lasting goodbye?
I am to uncertain to just deny that there is a future, there is a way,
but the thoughts are so explosive, I don’t know what to say.
All I understand is what is consuming me now,
saying goodbye to the ones I love, knowing that they are not near
-the person who held my hand in the present and in the past, is now no longer here,
because it is time to pass- a new adventure must begin,
her life she must start,
without me as a participant,
but always in my heart…..

Goodbye

While the world looks onward, I look back to say goodbye….
Goodbye to my heart, good bye to my life.
I once knew what I wanted, and now no longer do,
trying to discover who I am to you.
Trying to understand why life is tough,
wondering when I will be allowed to love.

Love not in the term you might think,
but love of life and all that it brings.
Love of my family, of my friends and my foe,
passion for existence no matter how tough the flow.

Many times I feel the tack,
and often concentrate on what I lack,
however rough and however meaningless,
my life to me and my problems are never seamless.

The things I say and the things I do,
are genuine from me and to whomever are you.
I will try to move on, and see the silver,
but perhaps there is gold awaiting on the future.
– strive for the gold and see the truth,
that love life and happiness will always be a pursuit.

The song in my heart shall never die,
can you ever hear it?
I doubt that you could,
but if you listen carefully you will hear the rhythm and stride.

To continue onward is to face another trial,
to stay still is to ask for trouble,
I will say goodbye to everything I knew,
must continue onward and face whatever is new.

-Theresa

Whirrled Peas, and save the turtles too!

So there I was with Katherine last night at a packing company picking up a much anticipated package.... on the way back to the Durango we see a package in the middle of the parking lot. It catched both of our eyes at the same time, so we walk over and look at the package and our eyes grow very large..... there right next to the a packing company sticker was another sticker in red that said "LIVE TURTLE!" I bend over pick it up, while Katherine and I just stare and whisper.... Some packing company guy drives by as I picked the small package up and says "What IS that?" so Katherine answers..... He grabs it and says, "well it is either a turtle or a bomb" and then runs off! So Katherine looks at me and says calmly "Lets drive away before we all blow up."

Moral of the story? NEVER send live turtles through the "packing company"!

**** Name of the company has been replaced with " a packing company" *giggle* for who knows what reason, seriously if your going to abandon a turtle in the middle of the parking lot in a box, I should scream your name from the mountain tops!****

The haunting of the Oreo!

Amazing how each Oreo has the most wonderful crunchy outer chocolaty layer decorated so delicately by a cookie mold and then each crunchy layer is compacted by the perfection of cream that balances out the texture that is inevitably different for each human being.

But oh no, the Oreo never stops there, it demands a friend, a companion if you will…. Everyone knows what an Oreo requires; it requires milk… yes milk. Now the most interesting part of having an Oreo with milk is that it doesn’t require a certain type of milk, whole, 2%, 1%, skim…. The Oreo will not be picky it is a rounder of sorts getting what milk it can…..

*sigh* oh the deliciousness of an Oreo, it can be eaten in so many ways… so many beautiful ways, twist open the crunchy layers revealing the creamy center, or perhaps separation of each incredible layer, dunking in milk until the consistency of the cookie is to the textural perfection of the consumer…. Ahh Oreo…… Best when discussed and consumed in a circle of friends who understand the greatness of the Oreo cookie!

tugging at my heart strings

Early this morning, I felt words of compassion. I thought I would share.

Seeing past the fields of gray, into a new life and hope for what is to come, not entirely what we can see, but walking on the faith that the Lord knows the way, and his promises are everlasting and true, Be still and know that I am God he says, in all aspects of life, not just the large problems, do not pick and choose when to trust and obey, but in everything give thanks to the Lord for he is good.

His amazing love is strong, and his might is powerful enough to carry us through the most severe storm to what we feel is the most insignificant problem. He is there to rely on, to lean on, and to show our eternal gratitude and thanks.

Look toward the heavens; keep your eyes on something higher than what we are. See each other with the compassion that only the Lord can provide. See his blessings around you, do not be selfish when you feel the blessings are not your own! The individual he created in you is important and significant, he hears your cry, he hears your call, and he will pour out when it is time.

Do not stop the praise! The Lord understands your hurt. Glorify the Lord in all you do, be conscious of what you say, and how you act-for each piece of your life is a ministry to the Lord. If you give thanks unto the Lord through the most difficult times, what a testimony you can be to the others who watch without you knowing. Offer yourself to the Lord, and he will not let you down. Lay your burdens at the cross where they are meant to be. He has called you to greatness; not by the standards of man, but by his standards, the one you cannot understand. In his time everything will come to light. Be at peace, he will test you and will never leave you.